me

It is not that I have not anything to say, it is just that all that I have to say to me does not seem worthing of talking about. However I seem to be getting better, hopefully I will writing soon...

writing again

Well after a long hard winter, its time I started writing again. So look out here I come!!!

State of Recovery

I had Surgery back on Sept 1st, and have been taking it easy, since I have at least 4 weeks off of work.

I won’t go into details of the surgery, except for the worst part for me, which is being put under anesthesia, or put to sleep as some people say.

I loose time. Meaning, when I go under, everything is blank; and when I am woken up, it feels as if I was only out for an instant, but in reality I have been out for 4 hours. I do not have a sense of time passing. . I remember nothing and I do not dream during that time.
In my mind, I have lost 4 hours in time that I cannot account for. I know that sounds weird but this is how I feel.

It is not the same thing when you are sleeping. When sleeping, most people dream, or have a sense of time passing as they sleep. You know you have slept for 4, 6, or even 8 hours, by either dreaming, coming in and out of conscience during the night, or other small indications that lends it self to the night. You wake up rested and mostly ready for the day (minus the jolt of caffeine).

Coming out of anesthesia, someone calls your name; you don’t recognize the voice; you hear strange noises and other voices that you don’t recognize; and you are in a different room from where you started. A dense fog comes over you and you blank again for a few moments, until you hear the voices again, and you are moving to a different room.
It takes a long time before you are coherently aware of what is going on around you.

I feel very vulnerable... I hate loosing time…

pain...

Pain reaches my heart every day I am not close to you.
I try not to remember, but I do, and it hurts
Do you not see?
Do you not care?
You confuse me, again and again…..
I cannot dwell on you any longer.
Until you decide….maybe you have….

?...?

Have you seen my face?
You have seen my eyes

You smile, and I smile
Have you seen my heart?

Why do you not hear me?
I listen to you

I am alone
Why can’t you stay?

I can not breathe when you are near
Where are you?

Do I cry for you?
…... yes ......

In Passing....

As we pass from one moment to the next,
Our lives are touched by so many people.
Some by a smile
Some by a word
Others by a touch
As we pass from one moment to the next,
Friends are created
Some by a smile
Some by a word
Others by a touch
As we pass from one moment to the next,
We are connected.
And, in that moment
We smile
We speak
We touch
And in passing by, in that moment
A memory is made.

My cure for the Economy...

The economy sucks and the government thinks giving money to the Car makers will stimulate the economy. They are WRONG!!! The only thing it will stimulate is the conglomerate’s pockets giving them a cheap thrill! And within a few months nothing will have changed, except now the government will have to be “Bailed out by some other country”

What the government needs to do and I am proposing to each and every one who happens by my blogg, to write or call their congressmen and demand the “TRICKLE UP ECONOMICS”

Yes that is what I said “TRICKLE UP ECONOMICS”

Here is how it works.

Take the money the government is planning on giving to the multi million dollar companies who can’t seem to manage "pouring piss out of a boot with the directions on the heal”, and give to the tax payers of the United States.

Now we worked the basics out below,
The government gives “US”, the tax payers the bail out money instead of the conglomerates, splitting it up among us. This would approximately give each tax payer about $100,000.00 each. (In some house holds it would be double because of two tax payers)

Now “We The People”, will in turn take this money and start paying off bills; buying new cars; buying new housing; rebuilding on existing housing; buying new clothes; pay for college; take trips; go to restaurants; go dancing; buy groceries; buy gas; have that elective surgery; and save some for a rainy day.
These small actions by “US” the lowly Tax payer will be in the long run “STIMULATING” the economy by “trickling up” the funds that the government provided.

The trickle up theory would make for a much faster turn around in the economy (buy just about 9 months) and the economy would be better, not perfect but better.

If you think this proposal is a good one then please by all means LET THE GOVERNMENT KNOW!!!” Before they throw money away !!

Thank you