I wonder.....

If any one has any Idea where they are going in life.
I am heading in one direction, then I am turned around and heading in another direction.
Then while traveling in that direction, I am pulled down another path that leads me to a fork.
At that fork, I have to decide which way to go.
Do I choose left, or right, or just stay where I am at and not move.
I have to move, or life passes by and leaves me in the dust.
So I have to choose.
Which ever path I go, life goes with me.

Selfish

Do not like it when people are selfish.
It bothers me that one person can only think of only themselves, and feel that they cannot help anyone else because it “interferes” in their life or what they are doing, even if they are only sitting in a chair watching TV, or just laying down in the middle of the afternoon.
I know that sometimes people have a lot on their plate and they can’t be there to help someone out, or even just to listen to the person because they need someone to talk to. I can understand that. People are busy.
But when the only thing you have planned is to lie down, or to catch a show on TV, and you cannot take the time to help someone find something, or even talk to them for a little while, then I have a problem with that.
I know that I am not perfect and I am guilty of doing the same thing on occasion, and I am not proud of that fact either. So I try to do better as a person and I hope that I do.
I treasure my friendships that I have, and so I take the time not to be selfish and to listen to someone that may need my ear. I will help someone find what they lost because what they lost is dearer to them than a TV Program
Sleep, I can do later.
I have a lot on my plate right now, but I will take the time to be a friend and not the time to be selfish.

Mother's Day

Mother’s day is tomorrow and I have sent my mom a card like most people do. It was not a funny one like I normally send, but more of a sentimental one. Not the sappy sick dripping with sugar one’s but one that is more general but still has a sentiment about it.
I don’t know why I did not send a funny one. I found this one and thought it was nice I guess, and figured she would like it.
So I bought it and mailed it with my “I love you” hand written inside. The funny thing is that I will never see those words written from her to me. Never hear those words said from her to me. My mom, for some reasons only known to her, or maybe she does not know, cannot seem to say those words.
Those three little words “I Love You” are the hardest words for anyone to say to the ones we care so much about, and I wonder…… Why?
It’s not because we have no one to love, most of us do. Some of us have a significant other that we care for; some have friends or relatives that are held with deep affection within our hearts. We show these people everyday that we love them, by our actions. It may be a small thing, like doing the dishes or mowing the grass, so the other does not have to do it; or bringing you a cup of coffee without having to ask for one.
But those words are hard. Most people cannot bring themselves to say them. They can do a million things that show the same thing but they cannot say the only words that most of us yearn to hear. It’s a validation that we all need. We all need to hear those words.
I know my mom loves me and she has tried so many times to say those words. When I tell her that I love her, she will smile and say “Okay”, and every once in a while she will mumble something back to me that sounds like it. It’s very hard for her.
I have come to accept the fact that I may never hear those words clearly coming from her. But that is okay. I will say them her “I Love You Mom!”