Saturday, May 13, 2006

Mother's Day

Mother’s day is tomorrow and I have sent my mom a card like most people do. It was not a funny one like I normally send, but more of a sentimental one. Not the sappy sick dripping with sugar one’s but one that is more general but still has a sentiment about it.
I don’t know why I did not send a funny one. I found this one and thought it was nice I guess, and figured she would like it.
So I bought it and mailed it with my “I love you” hand written inside. The funny thing is that I will never see those words written from her to me. Never hear those words said from her to me. My mom, for some reasons only known to her, or maybe she does not know, cannot seem to say those words.
Those three little words “I Love You” are the hardest words for anyone to say to the ones we care so much about, and I wonder…… Why?
It’s not because we have no one to love, most of us do. Some of us have a significant other that we care for; some have friends or relatives that are held with deep affection within our hearts. We show these people everyday that we love them, by our actions. It may be a small thing, like doing the dishes or mowing the grass, so the other does not have to do it; or bringing you a cup of coffee without having to ask for one.
But those words are hard. Most people cannot bring themselves to say them. They can do a million things that show the same thing but they cannot say the only words that most of us yearn to hear. It’s a validation that we all need. We all need to hear those words.
I know my mom loves me and she has tried so many times to say those words. When I tell her that I love her, she will smile and say “Okay”, and every once in a while she will mumble something back to me that sounds like it. It’s very hard for her.
I have come to accept the fact that I may never hear those words clearly coming from her. But that is okay. I will say them her “I Love You Mom!”

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